Life sucks

I am so tired of feeling this way. I want to die. I'm sick of being in the middle. I want to close my eyes and go to sleep. I hate what you've done to me and how I feel. No wonder why I come home and drink. I can't live with you and how you treat us. What is wrong and why us? You make me wish I was dead.i hate you so much. You are turning into a monster and I can't control or stop your abuse.

I lay here at night and wonder of the scale will be lower tomorrow. Will i be thinner? Will anyone notice I've lost weight or will it be another depressing year? I have gotten a few more tattoos, to keep me from cutting. Its strange, but true. The pain is my relief.

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