Life sucks

I am so tired of feeling this way. I want to die. I'm sick of being in the middle. I want to close my eyes and go to sleep. I hate what you've done to me and how I feel. No wonder why I come home and drink. I can't live with you and how you treat us. What is wrong and why us? You make me wish I was dead.i hate you so much. You are turning into a monster and I can't control or stop your abuse.